About me {& my keepsakes}

In loving memory of my fiancé Steven  & our beloved Baby Sabrowske {affectionately known as Baby S.}, whose light continues to shine upon me, & out from within me

To quote:

  • ‘To rhonda m. paul (I wish it was and will always think of you as Rhonda m. sabrowske)’ ~Steven J. Sabrowske Sr.
  •  ‘Comitting one to another for a lifetime is the ultimate and I do to you’ ~Steven J. Sabrowske Sr.
  • ‘We are like two angels each with one wing, apart we just flutter, but together we can fly…FOREVER!’ ~Steven J. Sabrowske Sr.

My beautiful STEVENLilypie Angel and Memorial tickers




For Steven  Baby Sabrowske


Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers




For those unfamiliar with my story, Steven & I dated back in the early 90’s & reunited on facebook the end of August 2010, after 16 years apart. We had never gotten over the other & could not believe our luck to be together again. Through shared tears, our enduring & now even greater affinity for one another had been revived (online), a reunion was shared as quickly as possible & we were soon engaged in October of 2010. In the midst of becoming reacquainted, we had just begun to discuss our wedding, & talk of a family.

My fiancé Steven died by suicide January 4, 2011.

After an overwhelming feeling difficult to describe & several tests later, I tested positive for child (my 1st & only pregnancy) & shared this news with Steven the only way I could.

March 2, 2011, while still in shock over losing him, Baby S. joined his/her Daddy & left me behind.

The one person I wanted & needed the most was not there.

Again, I shared this news with Steven the only way I could.

I could not even begin to confront this additional grief until September of 2011. It truly became a reality on October 16, when I apologized to my Steven at his grave site for failing him.

This, the day he proposed.

Forever grieving Steven’s suicide & the miscarriage of Baby S. (1st two major passing’s) within two months of themselves in 2011, I reflect back upon not only an extraordinary support system early on, but also in the unexpected kindness of strangers that I have met online through support. To my tearful delight, & through their ready compassion, creativity, understanding & generosity, I have been gifted several unique & deeply treasured keepsakes! Each gift equally as beautiful, with the focus placed solely on my very special loved ones! One day, instead of recycling yet another empty cereal box, I acted upon an idea to make my very own keepsake in the shape of a heart reflecting my STEVEN & BABY’S names! I never dreamed the inside of a cereal box could help create something so beautiful! This has since inspired me to give back in the same fashion as the compassionate gift givers met online & as part of my healing process; because I have truly felt the deep & powerful peace, closeness & immeasurable strength such a personal gift in acknowledgment can provide! In my days of moving forward, the love & guidance shared with my two passing’s have in addition to our hearts, further inspired our Baby Bubbles collection with Baby Shakes & Lullaby Lollies. The love continues…

*Now, I would like to share what STEVEN & BABY SABROWSKE have inspired in me by sharing this calling with you*


© Rhonda M Paul and You are always in my Heart, 2011. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material and/or photos without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Rhonda M Paul and You are always in my Heart with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. dcb1016
    May 23, 2012 @ 00:24:13

    March 12, 2012 12:23 pm

    I’m so sorry for your loss Rhonda. I think you are doing a wonderful thing here with making hearts!

    reposted by Rhonda
    (had to redo this page) Copied Caitlin’s treasured outreach so I would have it forever



  2. dcb1016
    May 23, 2012 @ 00:26:04

    March 12, 2012 1:16 pm

    Your words are a great comfort to me! I am most grateful in your support of my mission, my Steven & our child are the inspiration & assist every second with each & every heart I create! It’s all for love! My greatest wish is in helping heal broken hearts, the impact has been beautiful…



  3. Carol Slominski
    Jul 01, 2012 @ 12:32:47

    You are an amzing survivor ❤ Thank you for all the others you are helping heal while working on your own raw grief ~ You are in our prayers.



    • dcb1016
      Jul 01, 2012 @ 14:50:55

      Thank you for the encouraging display of support Carol! I have truly been blessed in the love & inspirations of my loss(es), & listen in the silence as they are always there when I reach for them! And what a beautiful gift in the camaraderie of other broken hearts that come together in genuine understanding such as yourself & give back in so many extraordinary ways! Thank you to YOU for all you do as well♥



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